Sacrifice

Chapter 8
"You're" he said so sure I lost every zeal to argue.
"He told you" I said barely above a whisper.
"No, I figured" he said and I looked at him inquisitively "when u came yesterday, you instinctly covered your stomach when I opened the door" I never knew I did it "today again you did the same thing" he looked behind me, it made me look too, but no one was there "also Paul was weird when he came home, he looked terrified, even as he tried to hide it, I picked it up" he said with a shrug.
"So you're able to pick all that" I said
"Yes, and immediately I said the word pregnant, your dementor changed" he said, so I confirmed it for him.
"For a guy that have no interest in things, you do notice a lot" I said with a sad chuckle and felt a tears escape my eyes.
"Walk with me Tonia" he said, in normal situation I would be happy, euphoria, but now, happiness is a far fetched feeling for me, so I just walked alongside him still gloomy.
"Its not the end of the world you know" He said as we slowly walk, I have no idea where we're going, but he always have this pull that makes me follow whenever he leads.
"Its funny you promised me everyday challenge, but ended up having the challenge of a lifetime" he said, I still kept quiet, how the table turns, today am the quiet one. We just silently walked both lost in thought, but still rely in each others company.
After a while we arrived at a serene location, I looked around it seem like a football field, I could see the two goal post, some part of the field have grass on it, I saw empty benches. Nobody expect us is here.
"Come let's go seat over there, the tree will provide perfect shade for us" he said point at the left, we went and sat down.
Nobody comes here by this time, so I always come here to let my mind romp to infinity collection of reality " he said, am not surprised.
Am more surprised his here with me, keeping me company, I keep wiping my tears refusing it to fall, it falling is me accepting reality, am not ready yet.
"He wants me to abort it" I finally said "he wants me to end like my sister" I said every word hurts, its like am being force to swallow a stone, for the fact am refusing to cry this is the consequences.
"Before we packed in here, my sister got pregnant for a Corper, everyone knew of their relationship, the Corper was responsible" I sniffed "but when my sister got pregnant, he revealed his true nature and asked for abortion, I don't really know much of the details, I just remembered waking up at the sound of my mom shouting for my sister" I remember that day vividly "my mom was shouting asking her who is responsible, in her anger she never knew the thin walls wasn't enough to prevent her voice from travelling, especially when the night was so peaceful and any sound would be heard from miles" I said, I know it was wrong for my mother to shout like that, she also have to be blamed for playing the part "after my sister confessed its the Corper, when we visited him in the morning he is already hone and no where to be found, that was when my sister realised he knew nothing about him, worse everybody in the neighborhood around knew about the pregnancy" I said as I exhaled, Peter is silent,the only sound I hear is the sound of his breathing and birds chirpings.
"To cut the story short, my sister couldn't stand the embarrassment and pressure from my parents, she took an abortion pill, but it back fired and she ended loosing her life" I said feeling the pain more.
"Now, am in the same situation" I said wiping the tears again.
"Am sorry" he said, that's all he did, I don't know what I was expecting, but I need more. For wanting more and getting less I got angry.
"I wouldn't have been in this situation if I wasn't hellbent on finding you" I shouted at him, the surprise look on his face was priceless "maybe if I was at home or if I did find you, I wouldn't have had a sudden urge for a man touch" now am crying, did I just accept the reality "or if you were present while the uncontrollable urge came, you would've stopped me, for you're the better one" am sure of it, like he said here makes your mind romp to infinity collection of endless reality.
"Did you just said urge" he asked, off all the things I said he picked this out, not even called the better one, I relaxed and wiped my tears
"Yes, it started as a slight sensation, I kept drinking to quells it down, instead it burns hotter, I was uncontrollably in need of a man touch" I said feeling embarrassed saying the last part.
"Pitiful" he said, I glared at him " you were fed viagram" he said
"What's that" I asked,
"Its an aphrodisiac drugs, it makes one..." He tried to explain
"I know what aphrodisiac means" chill crept all over my body, should be happy I was drugged will my uneducated mother understand. Or should I be mad for easily falling a victim.
"I have to go" I said and walked away, I need to confront Paul about it, as I left Peter didn't call me back or follow, that's typical Peter.